Sitting here and crying while thinking about our short time together. 

It has been one of the most interesting and fun times. Staying up late, texting all day, and just having that companionship that everyone can appreciate. 

What hurts the most is that I can’t do anything to help how much you’re hurting, and I can’t help but wonder what you’re doing, if you’re okay, and how was your day.

You’ve done nothing but treat me right, and who knows. That girl who ends up with you is going to be one lucky girl. I know it. I’m jealous of her. I’m so jealous that I can’t have what she will be able to have. I wish that I can be the one that can stay in your heart forever, but things don’t always work out as planned.

The small time that we had reserved for us was torn apart, and now it’s too late to go back to how we were. You’ve never done anything wrong, and I wish that I can take all of the hurt that you are feeling, so you don’t have to hurt. Because I know that you’re hurting more than me. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.

I pray that you will forget me soon so that you can be happy again. Because your smiling face is what will remain in my memories. Although we both knew, we did find  our love in a hopeless place. Maybe we should have stopped before it got this far, but I’m glad we didn’t. Because as of right now, I am still the only girl in your heart, and you, in mine. 

Please stop hurting, for me.

This is tough stuff. It’s not so simple when you’re in this situation. So, now what? What can we do? Just chill? Stay friends? Move forward? 

I DON’T KNOW. FUCK THIS SHIT.

I guess I was what he needed to stop. :/

I’m feeling strange. :/ IDK. Maybe a little depressed.

WTF…really? Really?

I dunno…I don’t really know who can actually read this, or if anyone is actually reading this, but, yeah. I kind of feel depressed. A bit hurt. I know why, I guess it’s these stupid emotions. They were barely there, but going through this kinda sucks. 

I just…didn’t think that I would get this attached, so quickly. I guess I just need to move on quietly. That’s what I do best. =D. 

Anyway, I’m sure that, nothing is going to be wrong, everything will be alright. I just, need to keep it to myself, and I will be fine.

I will be fine.

I hope my parents aren’t too mad at me. I didn’t really tell them where I was going, and I ended up spending the night out…well at least I was with my sister…for a bit of the time. Either way, I hope I’m not in too much trouble!!!!